I'm not going to write that I'm happy, because I'm not.
it's kind of hitting me that some people will never be in my life ever.
I try telling myself everything happens for a reason, but i don't understand why. how?
I miss when I was younger.
EVERYTHING was so much easier.


now back to my never ending books and some cups of coffee along the way.

But maybe, I wonder, there's a way to find some happiness in the sadness. After all, it's like the rain, something you can't avoid. And so, it seems to me, if you're caught in it, you might as well try to make the best of it.



Sometimes all I dream about is to be surrounded by nature..

instead of seeking new landscapes,
develop new eyes.
-marcel proust




I wish I lived a long, long time ago.
make it centuries.

I love this picture.

Because, because.

Yea. well, guess what?
Materialistic things DO make me happy.
Mere words do not even matter any more.
they forget.

Charlesss aka Henry

He is perfect.
and he's not gay.

a list.

I typically do not make new years resolutions.
I just think it's too difficult for people to follow through on them
and i tend to just try and be the best person i can
all year long.
occasionally though i will do things that really frustrate me,
if that makes sense.
this year however i have so many things going on and so many
things i would like to achieve. so here's a small list.

1. of course, to be my own person, which i know is nearly
impossible but its always good to try. i just want to be
comfortable with myself and act like the person i know
i am more often than not.
2. enjoy the experiences i have, live in the moment i suppose.
3. Eat much healthier and EXERCISE.
4. get into University.
5. pass all of my exams without going completely crazy.
6. enjoy even the smallest things in life.
7. Appreciate God.