It's funny how the days are passing by so fast..
Even though I am not going through the BEST time of my life at the moment, I still don't want these days and nights to end; Because I know the real challenge, frustration and stress will eventually begin to really form in April - May.

Anyhow, I shall now go finish an essay I reluctantly started a while back.
Salut.

It is all nice and kind of respectfull when you show you're sorry for the other person's loss you know? but plsssss stop talking over it like it's some kind of tv show for God's sakes!
LEAVE HER THE FUCK ALONE.

save money? how can i!!!

27th nov - Christophe's birthday; maji's rest is quite expensive. :C
28th nov - alcohol and extra 10 euros.
4th dec - malta, new moon. pv maybe?
10th dec - marthese's birthday. must buy a good present and there's offc the food and film..
18th dec - malta with mum. buys clothes and stuff for xmas.
and what about the christmas eve/day, new year eve/day?

Im going insane.

A part of me wants to stay but the other part wants to leave.
and I so need to perfect my english.
godammit!!!!!!!
:C

I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living. It's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope, which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities.
- dr. seuss

I have come to the conclusion that I am quite difficult to be understood.
And I am fed up of pretending...

Everything tires me out today.
Being me tires me out today.
constant thoughts of things to do, goals, plans, ideas, studies, tidy, money, stress all tire me out.
so i got some wintery coloured paper and fashioned a festive card for myself.
inside it was a routine for from now till christmas and the lost days between then and new year.
a routine that will let me progress without planning, work without stressing.
i thanked myself for such a kind gesture and intend on starting the set out routine tomoro.
it will be my break from thinking.
purely moving and getting on with it and letting my mind rest but not wasting a single day more.
i wont go into detail, its far too tiring.

I cannot change this society.
It is how it is.
People are never going to change.
I just wish I went to some school in Malta though instead of here.
just fed up with all you people around me.
whenever I think I have a good friend by my side, or at least a good acquaintance, I find out that you are actually hating me. why?

Two out of IdontknowhowmanyfriendsIgot are the truest.
Just two.
Unbelievable.

GODAMMIT.
two people cast out from my life in a couple of days.
It's not that I am such a hateful, evil person.
Its just that I literally cant stand you guys anymore. how can you be such decietful double faced assholes?
you fucking lie to my FACE!
I will admit im hurt but im also angry and It's all my fault.
because I give you chances, over and over.
ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGH.
nirleh alla jaqbadkom id diarrhea!

I just need to control my wants and needs.. Have to learn to control this obsession of always wanting more and more.
I can't have everything.
And I'm way broke.

out of sheer boredom.

You speak an infinite amount of nothing. and I shall not give any more chances to those who don't deserve any.

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WANTSSS ;









and a great book with a mug of coffee in bed.

it is winter now and the time to disappear inside where it is warm and huddle at desks over textbooks and steaming mugs and spend my time off cuddled up in bed with my reading books, getting lost in the yorkshire moors with the bronte sisters or walking bootclad feet along the thames river, hand in gloved hand with a boy that loves me for my mind and my character, not for who i wish i was.

Twas BORING yesterday.
I am beginning to hate weekends, except that I love seeing him after five long days without him by my side :C
It's so unfair.
Next saturday im off to Malta, fooo sure.
Fuck Gozo, and the lame Gozitans! PFT.